The Truth Is Coming

2010-03-30

Forget the past

Danger and I are okay, we're like brothers -  I say that like I know - I have no family besides G-Pops, so I just imagine that's what brothers are like.

There are a few siblings at school that can't stand each other, but that's not us. He's sorry for the way he acted and it's done as far as I'm concerned.

He likes Heather and was kind of mad at me for going with her...One thing is clear. It's the last dance I attend!

Sara is a different story...

Danger thinks I'm making more out of it than I need to. His guess is that she was just a little embarrassed that it looked like they were on a date. Sara's always been like one of the guys, but lately, I've seen her through different eyes, and it makes me fear that we'll lose what we have.

Maybe I made the whole thing up in my mind, because of the way I feel for her. My head spins just thinking about it.

This isn't how we planned it...

I know, we're crazy! We've promised to remain friends forever - just us against the world - so I've got to keep my thoughts of Sara in check or I'm going to blow it all.

They're both coming over today to hang. It's a better day.

2010-03-24

A solo act

School Daze...Get up late, devour some Charms, brush my teeth, and I'm gone!

Monday started like any other day, and ended in disaster.

Girls choice dance was this past Saturday, and I was asked out by Heather - she's cool - so I said yes...Besides, the original plan - for me, Sara, and Danger to just go hang, fell apart.

Sara's dad was going to take her along on a business trip to Chicago...She never spends time with him, so she was stoked! ---So, I told Heather, yeah--- (I'm not goin' solo, with Danger, to a dance...)

Heather and I are at the dance - it's all good - until...too late, I didn't see this coming!

Sara and Danger come in...together! I don't mean "hey, let's hang"...they were TOGETHER! That's not the bad part. All night me and Heather are trying to party with them, and they treated us like we were in their way.

I guess last minute Sara's dad's trip got all messed up, and she got bumped...again!

Today, at school, they avoided me. Come on! Really?

I've known these guys forever, and now they're a duo?

I'm just trying to make sense of it all.

2010-03-11

Dark days

So I'm finally back at school...not like "finally" as in about time, because I could have stayed away forever...If only! Sometimes I dream about being on my own, and traveling, because I know there are some pretty cool places out there.

I just don't fit in here, so it's got to be better anywhere else...right?

But, I'm back, and people are acting strange. I know we just had a student die, and that can mess you up...I miss her like crazy, but I think talking about someone that's gone is the best way to remember them. I'm always bugging G-Pops for the dirt on my Mom - even though I have no memories of her - it keeps her alive.

They've had shrinks here at the school since it happened to help us "cope" and all. That's not the weird part...It's the fact that hardly anyone is talking about it, that's messed up. If I even bring up her name - it's like I just dropped the F-bomb and the Principle is standing behind me - not a cool!

Danger says it's because we've never had to deal with this sort of thing, so people are just shutting down. He gets like that...I think he wants to be a shrink himself. (He's always telling me why I do the things I do...dang, I just do things, there's no reason for most of it).

Danger has a huge brain...he's the smartest guy in school! That's why I like him...someday when I decide to take over the world (dream big), I'll have a smart guy on my side. Ha!

I do find it strange that Adam hasn't been back to school yet. He must feel pretty guilty about the fight he and Cassidy had right before she hung herself, but he has to know that's not what made her do that...right?

And I'm not buying the rumor that Adam killed her and is locked up in juvy. Maybe that's why people aren't talkin'...Adam's gonna come get you if you talk too much...I said that in my best spooky voice.

These are dark days...


2010-03-03

Cold morning air

The whispers grow loud, then silence falls.

I was wide awake. My breath was visible and my eyes brittle. The alarm hadn't been slammed back into submission. So what had brought me back to life? I felt heavy there under the covers, like I was being crushed, but it was so cold I couldn't talk myself out.

This isn't how I should wake. I got that feeling again. I don't like feelings (not feelings like love and hate and happiness) - feelings - like the one I had in the kitchen as I looked out at G-Pop's motionless body.

I eased out of bed and pulled on my jacket and swayed to my feet...Frost was covering everything in my room. If you don't think that's cold, well...you'd be wrong. I pressed the palm of my hand against the light dusting of white on my window, to heat it up, and looked out to the yard. That's when it hit me...

The frost was only on the inside. I heard a noise from behind me. It was coming from the furnace closet (a half-sized door in the corner of my room). Yeah, it gives me the creeps too!

I couldn't make it out any faster.

Man was my Grandpa mad at me for waking him like that.

"What the...have you lost your mind Kade?"


"Something's in my room. In the furnace closet...I heard it."


By the time G-Pops shook off the sleep and dragged me back to my room...nothing! No noise, no frost, no way I was going back to sleep, so I went out to the living room and watched some crappy show in black and white until it was time to get ready for school.

The walk to school was nice...too nice a morning to explain frost in my bedroom.